A life changing shift

In 2016 I was called to a life of sobriety. I can still remember the day I decided to do it. I woke up with a wine headache, hating myself for letting the booze take me away the night before and I decided that enough is enough. No more. From this day forward I was no longer going to indulge and let this poison take me away from feeling and experiencing this life. I grew up in a family where it was very accepted, a part of our culture you might say. My father, finding his path in the restaurant/hotel business, plus a family history of alcoholism , you can understand how it became my norm. It was what I saw, what I knew and when shit got tough in my teens, it was the perfect solution to all my problems. I started to drink consistently when I was about 17 or 18 and it quickly became my life. Every day of the week except Sundays we would be out and about, bar hopping, going to restaurants, drinking our faces off. It seemed like everyone was doing it, maybe most were, but it wasn't until I got married and had my first son that I realized it was consuming my life and something had to change. I didn't snap out of the daze until I was 35 years old. I am a deeply intuitive and empathic being and I could no longer ignore the gnawing knowing that was whispering to me, telling me that there is so much more to life, and if I didn't stop, I was going to miss it all. My first stint at sobriety lasted 1 year and 4 months. Then.... I thought I could handle it and decided to bring it back into my life. Slowly but surely I was back to drinking 3 days a week, it was taking away my life again. I stopped for another 9 months. Brought it back in again socially, then stopped again for another year, finally realizing that my life was simply better without it. The road has been bumpy over the last eight years, but I am proud to say that my husband and I have been alcohol free for 2 years today!! I could not be more grateful, more relieved, more in love with this life, than I am now. I owe it all to deciding to pay attention to the voice that was nudging me to listen to that deep knowing, that a better life was possible. I could write a novel on the healing and many ways that my life has transformed over the last eight years. I am shedding everything that I am not, and finding my way back to myself. It is truly remarkable, a complete game changer on how I walk this life. I believe that there is a depth and mystery to life that we can only access in our purest form. The more in touch and connected we can get to our knowing, the more beauty we are able to see. Alcohol created a barrier for me. I hold no judgement for those who choose to drink. I understand why you do it, on all levels, believe me....but if you are at all curious on what a life without it would look like I strongly encourage you give it a try. I wish that I could somehow find a way to let you feel what I feel, to fully understand how much better your life would be. The healing, the love, the understanding that would open up to you. Just know that you are worth it. You are worth experiencing the most magnificent life that you can handle. In grounded ways and sending love to you all xo YAY!! 2 years!!! <3